Tutor profile: Hannah C.
Write a short, personal essay involving the emotions that you have gone through this week. Write with an emotional appeal. Be as descriptive and honest as you can.
It’s Okay to Not Be Okay As prepared as I thought I was, I wasn’t. I knew I would miss people and places, but I also knew how deeply I desired to be challenged and to step out of my comfort zone. I’m still not really sure if I took a step or a leap, but I know I am far from comfort. I am actually 1,649 miles from comfort. I left home feeling strong and confident and sure of who I was. I got here and realized just how little strength I actually have, and how little I really know about myself. I found myself wondering why we have to have dreams so much bigger than our hometowns. It’s the constant in between. It’s having my head being so invested here. So invested in learning and trying new things and planning out all of the adventures to take over the next four years. Meanwhile, my heart is yearning for home. The comfort of my room. My kitchen. My couch. My city. My people. It’s this battle between head and heart that I wasn’t prepared for. I think I expected my heart to move with my body, that it would be easy to invest myself whole heartedly here, but it’s not. It’s feeling lonely when you’re surrounded by people. It’s being surrounded by people who all have completely different experiences from you, and then all of a sudden you’re all in the same place, living the same life, experiencing the same trials and failures and successes, all with very different perspectives. No one talked about it. For a really long time, no one talked about it. But now it’s starting to come up. In coffee shops and lunch dates and nights of lying on each other’s floors. Every time it comes up, every time someone says that this is kind of a little bit hard, everyone else agrees. And then that leads into hours of conversation about just how hard this is. This transition. This head and heart thing. And all of a sudden you realize that you’re not alone. That there’s nothing wrong with you. That you do have something in common with all of these different people you’re surrounded by – you’re all feeling just as overwhelmed and lonely and adventurous and excited. But the novelty is beginning to wear off. The butterflies from the first couple of weeks have flown away. Routine is setting in. Friendships are solidifying. And even though we’re supposed to be adjusted by now and the transition is supposed to be over, it’s not. My week has been a string of conversations of admitting that it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay that some nights this is the last place I want to be and then the next morning I can’t imagine myself anywhere else. I’ve figured out that it’s okay, because everyone is feeling the same way. Everyone is feeling just as lost and conflicted as I am. I am thankful that my true comfort is found in something much more reliable than my emotions and my thoughts. I am thankful for friends who remind me of that and who are embracing the ups and downs of this adventure with me. I am thankful for friends who are holding me from a distance, and friends who are holding me from a few dorms down. I am thankful that I’m not supposed to have anything figured out, and that it’s really not even mine to figure out. I am thankful that it’s okay, to simply admit that sometimes this is hard, and that sometimes I’m not as okay as I would like to think I am.
Relate the play "A Raisin in the Sun" with the essay "Note's of a Native Son". How does the death of a father impact these two works of literature?
In “A Raisin in the Sun,” Walter’s mother who is called Mama in the play is frequent to remind Walter of the man his father was. She often speaks of his kindness, his work ethic, and his love for his family. Mama reminds Walter of these qualities as she desires to see them displayed in his life. She desires for Walter to be a man like his father. Towards the end of act one Mama describes her husband, “But he sure loved his children. Always wanted them to have something – be something.” (287) Mama often reminds her family of the way that their father cared about them. She says these things to challenge Walter to be a better father to his son Travis as well as his unborn child. There is a standard that has been set for the kind of father that Walter is supposed to be. While not a bad quality to have, in the eyes of his mother Walter is supposed to love his children the way that his father loved him. Similarly, in James Baldwin’s essay he himself is supposed to follow in his father’s footsteps. He speaks of one of his clearest memories of his father as he is remembering his relationship with him before he died. His father was a pastor, and he thought that his son possessed the same qualities. And so his father brought him to church and had him preach in front of their congregation, “My father asked me, abruptly, ‘You’d rather write than preach, wouldn’t you?’ I was astonished at his question – because it was a real question. I answered, ‘Yes.’ That was all we said. It was awful to remember that that was all we had ever said.” (80) There is much to be gained from this conversation between James and his father. This is pivotal because his father has come to the realization that his son isn’t going to become a preacher like him. Now that his father is dead, James has realized that this is the extent of memories he has of his father. James speaks of this memory has being “awful.” It can be inferred by the abruptness of the father’s question that he felt the same way when he realized that his son was more interested in writing than in preaching. These tense comparisons of father and son are powerful tools throughout the text. It adds an underlying quest; the quest to fulfill the legacy that has been left behind.
This question pertains to the novel A Brave New World which I had to read in an English class. What is a unique symbol that you see in the novel A Brave New World? Write a short paragraph explaining the symbols that you see and how they pertain to the novel itself.
One of the recurring symbols in the novel Brave New World by Aldous Huxley is the symbol of a bottle. From the beginning, it is clear that a bottle holds much more significance than the image that is associated with a bottle. Bottles are introduced as the way that humans are created, nurtured, and born. Each fetus is trapped inside of a bottle. This symbolizes the way that the characters are trapped within the constraints of their society even from before birth. From the moment they are created, they are placed within a bottle, and held there until they are ready to be born. They are nurtured within the bottle and born into conditions just as restricting as the walls of the bottle in which they developed. *This is elaborated upon in an essay.*
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